A very long journey.

I feel aged, at the same time very young.

I have seen much, and I know so little.

I have scars to show, and I look forward to more healings.

I am vulnerable, and I have built a strong fortress about me.

I have been conquered, and I will conquer.

These new paths I encounter must

not cower me. Though I am overwhelmed

by new things, I must take my awe in

stride. New things do overwhelm. Others

have gone unscathed before me. I am

made of resilient stuff, bending along the

directions of forces that should forge me.

For these forces are God-sent, their

designs not to harm me but to strengthen

me.

(written 15th July 2002 and still very true today)

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